An overdue update…plus a comment on last night

Talk about being idle! I have just not managed to put my fingers to the keys to keep the blog up to date.

The last month has been inconsistent to say the least. My exercise has been sporadic and this week especially my eating has been atrocious. I am seriously bingeing for the first time (or maybe it is just I recognise it?). I continue to eat because it is there and nearly challenge myself to finish off whatever it is tempting me. Part of the problem is I haven’t been to work this week with Little L getting sick. When I am not working, my exercise frequency drops off and then I eat more. Of course the awful germs have been kindly shared with me, so I am not too sorry to not be at work. My lungs feel like they will come out my mouth with every cough and to be honest, my work is nothing I am passionate about, so I don’t really miss being there, but I have so much work to do!

20130210-201749My boss is under extreme pressure at the moment and I am feeling significant guilt for not being there to ease the load. This part time gig was always planned to take some of the load off her, but I really haven’t had much opportunity. Although some bits I have managed to take off her plate, there is also lots of stuff I just can’t manage to help out with because all the details are in her head, and I am just not there enough. She doesn’t have time to brief me properly so she just keeps it all to herself. It worries me for her and my other half who is under similar pressures.

So Little L is 22 months now and is only having one sleep when at daycare. He is a mess with one sleep and although he probably could have gone to daycare some of this week, I just know he would be home again next week without some proper rest. So I have been putting him down for two sleeps all week. He is going down easily and not even too bad at night. So it seems to be working. But again, I am feeling guilty, if he is well enough to be in care – then he should be! But then I feel better knowing he is likely to be fully recovered by next Monday to start in care again.

Anyway, with this week off, then school holidays starts, crikey, I don’t feel like I am ever in the office. I will really have to be on my game to get the healthy eating and exercise down for next week for my shift of school holiday care with Little D.

I have been seeing my trainer irregularly and have not been to yoga for about three weeks! 20130403-103639 I am missing the yoga terribly, I am not looking forward to the slow progression back into it. But work for Big D is really out of control (where he comes home late and may be working at home until 1-2am each night) so it is hard to get away to make the class times. He leaves the house any time after 7am so my options for classes really are limited morning and night. It can be frustrating, but I am trying to keep my attitude in check.

Even though my training has really not been what I would like. I am trying to do it without a fixed program (ie no 12WBT for a bit (I was getting bored)). I really want to be driven by my own goals and desires, not by a timeline that has an imperative based on how much money I have spent! I have been looking around to see if there is anything else I can do locally that might give me more satisfaction, including swapping my Personal Trainer. I really want someone who is engaged with me, takes the time to know me and helps me to develop physically, mentally and with my knowledge. I have found a boxing coach locally who I really want to see, boxing is absolutely one of my favourite training options and I would love to do it properly. So I hope I can make some times to get to his classes and maybe use him as my PT?

Without wanting to get caught up in all the Political crap – I just want to say I am saddened by the removal of Julia Gillard last night. Sure, she didn’t get to the top job in the first place in the best way, but she was there post-election in 2010 having negotiated Labour’s way into Government. If Labour think rewarding Rudd for his conniving behaviour is the way to remain in power I think they are kidding themselves (or the Australian voters are as dopey the media portrays us). All this talk from ‘people on the streets’ in the media about how popular he is I think is bollocks, as is the talk about her ‘lying’ about the carbon tax – consider the circumstances of the govt, it wasn’t just her decision. The sooner this current batch of leaders is over the better. Personally I can’t stand listening to Rudd or Abbott.


Catching up after the end of Round 1 plus a few weeks!

In all honesty I really didn’t do well in this Round of 12WBT when I look over my goals. I didn’t lose the weight I planned to but there are still lots of positives:

  • I attended my first yoga class and now attend hot yoga at least once a week and take Little D along to a kids class on Wednesday (who would have thought it would be on offer in Regional Victoria?).
  • I am feeling my fittest ever
  • I have been attending the lunchtime circuits at work and been smashing them. This week we did a circuit that included box jumps on the old gym box horse things (I remember something similar from school) – so it was about waist height – and I did them, I had been keen to try them but hadn’t had the opportunity. Loved it, such a good feeling to do it and not just once, but repeatedly for the time period on the exercise. Awesome.
  • I am wearing size 12.
  • My best buddy who came to the Finale Workout with me (who joined the Army with me so we have known each other for 20 years) thinks I am looking the best she has ever seen me. Now that means I am doing something right.

So the scales aren’t telling me I achieved my goal, but I am content with the achievements. I still have lots of work to do on my food – but that is nothing new.

Waiting for the workout to begin.

Waiting for the workout to begin.

The finale! It seems like a lifetime ago already – although I enjoyed the workout, I haven’t signed up for the next round. I plan to keep doing what I have been doing, keep the workouts going at work, see my PT on Fridays, fit in a run (hopefully on the weekend or at work) and do yoga one night a week. But of course the biggest thing is to work on my relationship with food. I am conscious of it, just chose to give in too easily, pretty much daring myself to eat stuff. Crazy what I do. Last week Big D was away and I actually found myself binge eating – I don’t recall having eaten like it before. It shocked me.

As much as I like the 12WBT and I know I will miss the online workouts and in particular (especially coming up to Winter if I need to do the early morning training). Not having the forums to go to for support will also be a loss. But I think I am a little stale, and would like a little freedom to make my own path without feeling I am wasting money. I won’t say no to future rounds. I am attracted to the Lean and Strong program (which is lots of weight training to really define the body) but that is something for when I have more time to get to a gym or have a place at home to set up some weights.

At the workout I bought a FitBit – it is a pedometer on steroids, once I work out how to copy my dashboard to show what it does, I will talk about it some more…..

I have been noticeably absent from my blog. Not that I haven’t wanted to be on here, I still have lots to say, but just haven’t managed to spend the time to make it readable. I have the opportunity today because I am not pushed to take Little L out or do any domestic chores. I had some surgery yesterday to remove a couple of moles and a cyst. After having a melanoma removed last year, I am not shy in taking anything off my skin that may be slightly suspicious. Fortunately I am not too sore, but have to keep ducking Little L and his busy hands! I do feel a little like Frankenstein with stitches on my left temple and a bandage on my neck which means I don’t have full movement. But that will all be gone when I go back to get the stitches removed on Tue.

I will work to catch up on my posts in the coming days.  I hope all those who are into Round 2 12WBT have started well…..

Week 12 already?

How time has flown, it is now week 12 of the 12WBT. I can’t believe how this round seems to have passed so quickly. So I have three days to achieve my weightloss goals!! Ha, not likely. The time passing of course makes me think of the wasted opportunity – I could have done better through every one of the 12 weeks – but it is not worth wasting my brain on chastising myself for it now.

The past three weeks I aimed to lose 2kg after having a terrible weigh in and struggling to get back on track. I started strong and I still might make it, perhaps not tomorrow morning but perhaps by Fri. I am weighing myself every couple of days and I am always astounded by the variations. As an example, I was well on track last Wed to achieve the 2 in 3 weeks – but this morning it seemed to be all back again!images-11

I have continued to get to the lunchtime circuits at work which have been great. Today was a specific circuit for a new fitness test we have to do and it was hard work. Over 420 cal in 40 mins, I think that is pretty impressive. It was tough, but it is only a taste, when you take on the read PT to get you to the test, you are carrying something like 20kg including a pretend rifle. Ouch.

The good news is a managed to get to hot yoga as well tonight. I put on my HR monitor to see what sort of calorie use I got out of the session – another 200 down.

What I am really looking forward to is the 12WBT workout with Michelle Bridges and probably 1200 other people on Sat morning. I am meeting an old friend I joined the Army with in Melbourne and we are hitting it together. It will be just like old times. She is such a great sounding board for me and I will certainly be taking the opportunity to talk about what I will be doing next with myself. I am labouring over the decision to get out of uniform and even though I had a sense of having made a decision to do it last night (and woke this morning feeling lighter as a result), some good vibes at work today make me question myself again. So she will help me to see straight and provide perspective it can be hard to find when you are still wearing green.

We aren’t going to the party – it isn’t really our thing and to be honest, having a nice dinner will be more than enough excitement for me! I have plans for shopping for this mostly size 12 body that I have now (down from a 16) and I don’t think I would have time to make myself ‘cocktail’ party ready in the same day (including finding a frock)!

I don’t think I will be signing up to round 2 of 12WBT. As much as I am tempted with some of the new improvements and additions to the program, I don’t think I have the drive to make the most of the money that I would be spending. So I will go it alone, being satisfied with the steady yet slow progress I have been making this round and try to come up with revised goals. I have been on the hunt for new fitness goals and still keeping an eye out for more diversity in my training. But I will let you know about that.

A good weigh in and lunch circuits

My work this week has paid off, I have lost 1.2kg since the last weight in. Phew, a sigh of relief. So that means I lost all the weight I had put on last week plus a little more. That really makes me pleased.

20130317-200832I got to do the best circuit of the year at work on Tuesday. They are doing a fitness leader course and I think we got the benefits of their training. So it was a bit of an obstacle course that went around the outside of the gym. Here is how it went:

  • it started with a short sprint,
  • 10 wide arm pushups,
  • balance walk,
  • high knee runs on a crash mat,
  • ‘frog’ situps (wide legs, arms up),
  • gate vault over a rolled up matt,
  • then squats,
  • a climb up and across the railing that line the gym wall,
  • monkey bar (loved this I wasn’t sure I could do it, but seem to be in better form now than ever),
  • then pickup and run with a punching bag (just short shuttle run),
  • then jump overs, ladder on the floor (fast feet essentially), sit-ups, back down jump overs and ladder,
  • 10 burpees,
  • a coord exercise throwing a tennis ball with one hand at the wall and catching it with the other (this took about five goes to get it right then I was all good),
  • skipping,
  • another shuttle run, and
  • then back to the start!

It was so good, I just loved it. The cool thing was passing four men in the process. Since we started one after the other it was easy to see your progress. Now, although I did pas four blokes I will admit they are all probably older than me, so I probably should have passed more of them! I popped into the cardio room and managed another 15 mins on the cross trainer and bike to get me up to 500 cal.

In terms of Tightened Tuesday theme, I didn’t blitz it, but I certainly did better than last week. I guess that is why the scales were so kind to me. I do like the idea of having a ‘clean-ish’ day once a week. Last night while the kids had scrambled eggs and tuna bake (enticing isn’t it? Little L is so tired after a day in care, I cranked out the eggs to get him eating while the tuna bake cooked)TAS2463_FROZEN-MICROWAVE-RANGE_BOX_1L I just got some salmon from the freezer and had that with a bag of steamed veges. Sure they may not be fresh from the fridge all cut up with love and care by me, but it was quick and really tasty and I am sure would be ok for desperate 12WBT meal. If you haven’t tried this salmon it is really yum and not too big to overtake your meal calories.

Today I got in a circuit again at work (some would call this sick, but I do enjoy getting to exercise with other people and they are always different). Another new on with the following exercises:

  • 6 burpees the shuttle run,
  • 6 burpees, 8 upright row – press, shuttle run
  • 6 burpees, 8 upright row-press, 12 dead lift, shuttle run,
  • 6 burpees, 8 upright row-press, 12 dead lift, 10 frog sit-ups, shuttle run,
  • 6 burpees, 8 upright row-press, 12 dead lift, 10 frog sit-ups, 14 pushups, shuttle run
  • 6 burpees, 8 upright row-press, 12 dead lift, 10 frog sit-ups, 14 pushups, 16 supermans (each side then arms and legs), shuttle run
  • 6 burpees, 8 upright row-press, 12 dead lift, 10 frog sit-ups, 14 pushups, 16 supermans (each side then arms and legs = 1), 20 step ups with medicine ball above the head, shuttle run.

Once that was done, you then started to go back down dropping off exercises. So it was pretty intense. By the time I got a few extra stretches in there was 450 cal gone. I had to drive to the circuit but managed to fit it in with a shower before a meeting, very handy!

This afternoon I grabbed Little D and we went did kids yoga together. It was really lovely, it is nice to have the chance to do something with her rather than watch her (like most kids activities). I hope we will make it again next week. It just means a quick dinner when we don’t get to pick up Little L until after  5.15pm (I know that is early for many people who have a long way to drive or heavy traffic)! So a not so 12WBT friendly dinner of toasties. But not too much, they were popular so the kids kept stealing mine!

I hope your week is going as well as mine. Although, I wasn’t so happy this morning. Little L having a tantrum getting into the car and gave me a fat lip! Charming…..

Back in the ‘running’ saddle

I wrote this on Monday – just didn’t manage to post it.

I was really pleased with yesterday morning, I got up and went for a run that actually wasn’t too bad! It certainly started hard, but once I was warm I actually enjoyed it. It has been such a long time since I have made the effort to get out like that.


This is where I did my hill run, it goes around to right (where you can’t see) so makes for a good round up and down.

I planned to try to make up for Saturday and work on reaching 1000cal. So I headed out from home with a plan in my head to run the 8km track I did a while ago. Once I got to the point where my brain was saying ‘home isn’t too far now’ I looked at my watch and realised that I had hardly broken 300 cal! What the…? So I headed to the hill in the photo and did a few hill runs. They went better than I expected too.

Now I have to explain my HR monitor situation. I got an awesome Garmin for Christmas but when I use the HR monitor with it, the cal count is SIGNIFICANTLY different to my trusty old Polar (I got it around 2006 and it is still going) – I am talking 100s of cal less. So I have been wearing the Garmin on my wrist for distance measurement and the Polar HR monitor (with the watch tucked away) for HR tracking. Today I realised that the Polar HR monitor was transmitting to the Garmin. By the end of the run, including hill running (in an attempt to get the cal up) I still only used 680 cal! I did use Mapymyrun too and it had me over 800 cal, so that makes me feel better!

I am a little confused by the Garmin formula that calculates cal use, there is so much difference between Polar and Garmin that I wonder what is the closest? Maybe they are both out and might be the reason I find it so hard to reach 1000cal? That is more likely to be wishful thinking!

Unfortunately Little L woke this morning still with too much snot coming from his nose and coughing, so I have kept him home. I had planned to go to work and actually was looking forward to it. Besides having planned to attend the lunchtime circuit, it would give me a chance to tidy up after last weeks meetings. Possibly the little guy may have been ok at childcare, but I am sure I would have got the call to come get him. To be honest, if another parent sent their child to daycare in the state he was, I wouldn’t be happy. Plus he only sleeps once at daycare, twice at home. So I find he gets unmanageable with tiredness. Hopefully the extra sleep will mean he will be well enough to go tomorrow. Then I can get to the lunchtime circuit where I won’t have to drive anywhere.

Big D leaves town for more than a week early tomorrow morning. It is kind of good, I get to sort the kids and I out without having to think about what he is doing. The only problem is not being able to get to yoga. I couldn’t manage it yesterday since he was at work most of the day trying to make inroads in preparation for being away. But I am working on being better prepared and found this cool weekly calendar you can stick on your fridge or mirror (from office works by Martha Stewart)

I will put him into bed soon, so I will try to squish in a 12WBT workout videos (which I did! Earn Your Burn with a bit of Burning Bridges to get my cal to 500). Sleep and food my two biggest issues – STILL. Anyone else still fighting those demons nine weeks into Round 1?

Gripes about The Biggest Loser

After Alex visited my blog this week I had a read of her blog ‘Try a Little Harder, Honey‘ where she was talking about ‘The Biggest Loser’ (thanks for the pic too Alex, it is on my bathroom mirror now). Now Alex has a little workout where she does specific exercises for various parts of the show – you know burpees for tears, plank in sympathy with the contestants, squats for a product plug etc. I like it. Though I generally have found myself sitting on my backside telling them to get a grip or cheering on those who just get on with the job.


I have a few gripes with the Biggest Loser. I have been watching it since the start, also keep an eye on the US series when they are shown. Most of my issues have been with me for many seasons now, so here they are in no particular order:

  • I think the formula is wrong – this whole lose the most weigh concept is flawed. Do you remember Chris Garling? He won season two (I had to go searching for all this) after being secretly trained by the Commando. But when he appeared at the finale he looked terrible! I think he had stripped too much weight rather than go a healthy weight. If anyone saw the ‘Excess Baggage’ that was on Channel nine a while ago. They used a whole set of parameters to measure improvements. Now forgive my ailing memory but it included a fitness test, body composition and a measure of their efforts for the week. That sounds much better and in support of a healthy lifestyle, rather than lose the greatest percentage.
  • The women rarely look like they have been provided or have correct underwear for exercise? Now some of the women have seriously big boobs and rarely are they contained when the contestants are running or on a bike. You watch some of the challenges and these poor women are working their guts out and look to be doing themselves a serious injury. I find it disappointing that they don’t make a point of ensuring the puppies are restrained and even making it a teaching point for the audience. Given Michelle was a the poster girl for Triumph sports bras.
  • Back a few seasons ago of Loser they had a Friday night ‘masterclass’. I really wish they would bring it back, it really gave some great tips and insights into how the contestants are coached to live in the house. I am sure that quinoa took off after it featured on the show. I think this was a real loss to not have these sessions the next year. It meant the show could have a real impact on its audience by teaching about food, correct exercise etc.
  • There is much talk in the weight loss world and on the show about self sabotage, also about keeping those who stand in the way of your progress, away from  you. So why do they insist on games, twists and turns in the show that are detrimental to their progress? I would prefer less scheming and game playing and watch people get a grip on their lives, beat their demons, kick some arse in training sessions and learn something than have some of the antics in the house. You know the ones – where people are forced to order from takeaway menus all week, or only eat one colour all of those sorts of things. I think it is detrimental to the contestants and often demeaning.
  • Perhaps my biggest gripe is the lack of technique correction when the contestants are exercising. The other night Amber was doing shoulder shrugs as an excuse for pushups. They were rubbish, but no one told her it was crap and she needed to do them properly! People can be seen on the rowing machine with atrocious technique, chain flapping, uncoordinated arm/leg action – it drives me nuts! Michelle makes a point with her snip tips in the 12WBT to show people how to do it, but there are lots of clips of awful technique in the show. I know you only seem a portion of the work the contestants are doing, but I don’t think it helps people watching when they are demonstrating terrible technique.

Now I know pretty much all of the women who watch the show reckon the Commando is pretty good and I have to say, I count myself as one of them. Having done LOTS of PT under Commando types during my 20 years in the military, I think he has softened up in his old age! But I can’t help but smile when he shows the old PTI tendencies (Physical Training Instructor) on the show. Once a PTI, always a PTI.

I am always keenly interested in the workouts and love watching Michelle, Shannon and Commando as trainers and being trained. You can’t help but admire them, each so different, but strong in their own special way. I love their drive and passion, they are inspiring to me. I hope to find passion like that for my next career.


A stolen Easter and catch up

I can’t believe we are at week 8 of the 12WBT. Weigh in day today and I had a small loss, I am really happy with that, but I think the fact that Little L was vomiting over Easter and I felt more sympathy for him than I would have liked, worked in my favour. Who would have though there was a silver lining to an Easter stolen through illness!

We had planned to go to Canberra and go shopping for Easter, which didn’t eventuate due to sicky boy (Big D ended up getting the bug too), but only yesterday did I realise how much I needed to go shopping. In trying to find some civvies to wear to work, I realised I don’t have anything that fits me! Nearly all my clothes are too big for me, even jackets. Now if that isn’t motivation to work hard and get this program under control – nothing is!

I have taken to writing on my mirror to remind me what I am doing.

I have taken to writing on my mirror to remind me what I am doing.

I did the lunchtime circuit at work today and it was great, 30 or 40 min of strength/cardio circuit and then I jumped on the treadmill to get me up to 550cal. I was really happy with that. Essentially they had a square of benches and mats with each square having four exercises on the station. You started with 10 reps of the first exercise, then moved around the square to the next exercise, doing all four sides then run two laps then do all the second exercises. It was an overload circuit so all the first exercises were arms, second was abs, third legs and fourth? I can’t even remember! But it was GOOD. I was beating the blokes that started with me on our station – it always makes me laugh how men feel completely threatened when a woman can match them!

I remember in my training always struggling with my PT (physical training). It was so much hard work, during my time at one institution it was common for my nerves being so distraught at the prospect of PT I would get the runs. In fact, many of my friends felt the same. It was such a daunting prospect to turn up to PT, when you knew you were going to put put through the ringer. I tell you what it doesn’t leave me with much sympathy for people vomiting or crying on The Biggest Loser!

There was one classmate who was the complete package, good looking, smart, natural leader and the fittest person I had ever come across. Of course he always kicked my arse in PT, but how I loved having to get in the pool on the odd occasion. He would sink like a rock and I would kick his arse! Oh the satisfaction of beating the consummate alpha male!

I am thinking about going to the 12WBT finale with my sister. I think more than anything I want to do the workout! Am I crazy?